Turmoil again

Well I haven't been around much but there is good reason.

I have decided today that I must thrive on pressure and turmoil. Found out today that Rhiannon's next opereration is likely to be imminent.....Sounds like the decision could be taken tomorrow or Wednesday and the op will almost certainly be in November or December....yep before christmas and we hadn't expected that. November starts on Thursday. The hospital have said they will phone the details through as it is likely to be sooner rather than later. Just have to hope now that it doesn't clash with Ffi's specialist appointment which is also in November and we have been waiting a year for.

Also happening here.....Today I got the results from the Morrisby phsychometric test I had the week before last...will tell more later. Jay passed his latest course with flying colours which is fab and also his motorbike passed its MOT today in much the same fashion.

Under Pressure

I am so far behind with everything at the moment it is quite unbelievable. It seems like only yesterday that the girls went back to school after summer and here they are a week into their October halfterm. I don't seem to have done anything crafty for days.....well with the exception of frantically trying to knit a witch for Ffion. I haven't knitted in ages and by my own admissions I am no expert and quite slow. The witch has the odd mistake but then thats part of me isn't it? just adds to the charm of it doesn't it? Well it will have to as I told Ffi yesterday that I wasn't sure that she would have her witch for halloween.....she looked at me and smiled (the one that has a habit of getting her what she wants) and said "I know you can do it mummy" So guess what I'll be doing this weekend. Just as well Jay is on a course all weekend, Justine is on night hikes and Rhiannon is lifeguarding so it will be just Ffi and I and several balls of wool for most of the next few days.

My Red Arrows Birthday

Well its here.....my birthday and a strange kind of birthday it has been. I have had a fabulous fly past and display courtesy of the fabby Red Arrows.....beautiful clear skys over Lincoln and they were up for ages......thanks guys for your excellent choice of day. Then I spent twenty minutes or so sat on the kerb with my legs in the road.....I was perfectly sober (and still am at the moment ....not for long though I hope). Just about to start craft club and there was an RTA outside school. I had to run....something I don't do often anymore. So eventful yes and I will sure be participating in a glass or three of whith this evening.

Re the cards or LIVES raffle the first package of cards turned up today and someones not playing ball. LOL There was no info in the package so please tell me who you are so that I can both thankyou and do your raffle tickets. Oh and yes I checked the little boy who was knocked over out, calmed him down and rang Jays Lives phone.....he was in the area and able to come to the rescue. I have not even had time to tell him about the cards that arrived yet but I know he will be bowled over by such generosity from someone he has never met.

The Prize

So here it is the prize for the L.I.V.E.S. card donations. Obviously this is it in the box. I did try and remove it but started to tear the box and thought better of it. The contents are:

Model 250 spray gun with attached 3/4oz (22cc) jar

250 ml air propellant (This will not be included if the prize needs to be posted for safety reasons but is readily available)

Propellant regulator

5ft (1.58m) vinyl air hose

spare 1oz Jar

Instruction leaflets

Tis a great little tool and I hope whoever it ends up living with enjoys it.

L.I.V.E.S.

Those of you who know me will know that Jay is a Lone Responder for L.I.V.E.S. (Lincolnshire Integrated Voluntary Emergency Services). A really worthwhile charity that provide a valuable service in Lincolnshire.

Well I was offered some space to sell my cards recently.....I decided that I would do it but only as a charity fundraisin thing and obviously as L.I.V.E.S. is a personal thing for us I would like to do this for them. In true marketing fashion I should now say that roughly £6 can buy a bottle of oxygen that can help save someones life. Jay alone has responded to over 150 calls already this year.

The only thing is I am not really a big cardmaker and so this is where I need some help. I need to fill a card stand initially (I will mamage to top it up afterwards) and that is where I am hoping the cardmaking/scrapping community will help me out.

So heres what I am asking. I have bought a fabby (if I say so myself and I do. Airbrush Spray Gun Set which works of a compressed air propellant and is excellent or crafts (will spray enamels, artists colours,laquers)

You can stencil, spray your own background papers and much more. Have I sold it to you yet??

Well what I am asking is that you make a card to be sald in aid of L.I.V.E.S. and for each card sent a raffle ticket will be raised and on 31st December a ticket will be drawn and I will send the owner of the winning ticket this excellent tool. (I have to say that if the Airbrush needs posting then the propellant will not be included as I cannot post a gas cannister for obvious reasons but these are readily available). I will post a picture of the prize soon.

The subject of the card is your choice as I will need a really wide range to get it started so it can be Christmas, birthday, get well, thankyou, anniversary, sympathy.......well as I said anything really. If you would like to help a great cause and enter my airbrush draw you can contact me via jemm@tinyworld.co.uk for the send details.

My Beautiful Girl

No other words for it I love Ffi more than I can ever say and today she is feeling sore which makes her feel different and upset yet still she is smily happy Ffi. That is enough to make me adament that she is going to get a diagnosis this time I am absolutely determined.

I am seeing the Uni peeps tomorrow so might have more news after that.

I am not going to let another birthday pass without some kind of direction in my life.

Do I sound determined?......well I am but I may need a push or two from a few friends:)

A big plan on my blog tomorrow....Hope you can help.

still here

Well I am still here even if I am a lot quieter than usual. I have been trying to have a sort out of my craft stuff.....quite a feat in itself. I really don't know how I accumulated this much....in fact I think that someone has been bringing in extra in the night and leaving it.....maybe a case of having stash fairies.....do you think??

I am no closer to deciding what I want to do. I am off to speak to the Uni on Friday, I have a psychometric test on Wednesday (hhhmmm wonder what I will find out about me) and the ever looming birthday is on Thursday.

Ffi's specialist appointment will soon be here.... a new one so fingers crossed we might find out what is wrong.....it has been over 4 years and still we really know nothing. I so hope that we get to the bottom of things this time both for Ffi and for us. The picture is Ffi posing by the main lake in the park that is home.

Unlucky 16

Yep stressy bunny would probably be the best description of me at the moment. I dare not start making my stress flowers as I think we would have to move out to make room for them all.

I have been doing a lot of thinking and thinking can be dangerous.

I am in a rut that I need to get out of.....okay I know that but how? (shove anyone) and which way to go when I get out of it? ....well I am still trying to fathom that one out. I have ideas that seem good one day and then kind of "what the hell are you thinking of" the day after.

I need to kind of sort things in my head before that date in November. It will be Seven years since Ffi and I were attacked and today it feels like yesterday.......It's strange sometimes I think I am over it but in the case of that and of Rhiannons accident (almost 14 years ago) I don't think I ever will be its just a case of locking it away somewhere until it manages to force its way back out. I suppose I have to accept that I will always dread November 16th and January 16th. I guess 16 is not my lucky number.

So if you have the answer....could I have it on a postcard please.

If you couldn't guess there is not much crafting going on here......well I have started to knot a witch for Ffion.

AWOL

So I've been AWOL. Not having a fantastic time of things at the moment and I have not made anything in days but thanks to Patsy who put up a challenge on her blog today I have actually made a card. Its in the picture.....yes I am still trying to cut it as a cardmaker. It was quite funny really because Jay came home and said it was nice and asked "who's ill" ........his face was a picture when I told him "no one". Having said that Justine had to go one better a short time later she asked the same question and got the same replies and followed it up with "oh well its very pretty - lets hope someones ill soon then". LOL.....Lets not.